Uncertainty

The Futrue is Uncertain

So is the present

and so is the the past

The questions

Who What When

Where Why and How

They are always asked

But almost never

in full answered

Life Is Uncertain

But if it wasn't

Boredom would be ours

for enternity

So bring on the Uncertainty

People

You know I was just thinking about people in my life, or lack thereof depending on your point of view. People I went to school with, my friends, most people my age in general are married or divorced or engaged or at least have a baby... so the question is what is wrong with me, I will be 27 in 2 months and I still have no real urge to settle down, yes I wouldn't mind being in a relationship, but to fully settle down, to never travel like my plans were, that I am not ready for, I still want to do a huge trip across Europe- London, Paris, someplace in Spain, someplace in Germany, Rome, Florance, Sicily- hell then go further- Egypt, Moscow, The Great Wall of China, Toyko- then I stop and think... about do I really want to stay in Iowa... I would love to live in NYC or LA or even Chicago... I would love to go back to school, but I still don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life... then I stop and think about how short life is, how I have all these plans do everything I want then settle down... but what if I don't have the time to do so... life is so short... how you choose what is most important... what do you have to do in this life to fill satisfied... what if you can't choose... what if you want everything... I don't know anymore

Dreams

Okay here are some weird dreams I have had in the last month:
1) For some unknown reason I was back in my high school (for some type of event) and there was this guy, he was someone I use to know then he morphed into an unknown man and he brought out some guns and locked us in the library, people were panicking so I was trying calm them down and making crazy ideas how to escape, then the guy walked back in and I woke up.

2) Kim (my sis) and I where driving and we were going down this steep hil into like a parking garage and this guy like cuts us off causing us to flip over a few times but we landed right side up but Kim was hurt really bad, and I got out and calling 911, we were in this like underground parking lot and road and I could see a subway and olive garden and other places it looked like a downtown. I then went over to protect Kim until help arrived, she was really hurt. Then all of a sudden she wasn't she got up and met Lucy (her friend) at subway. I was still at the scene and there was this guy who just had this worried look staring at me, then I woke up.

Pictures

This is a picture of me in college, I really hate pictures of myself but sometimes it is smart to have a picture of yourself somewhere for people to see.

Music

I am trying to keep my calm it is not easy, people are so stupid sometimes, and the phones at work suck which makes us look bad and I am going to get the 24th off even if I have to call in, so to keep my calm I am listening to music but since my brand new head phones somehow broke I am not very happy...

Music

I am trying to keep my calm it is not easy, people are so stupid sometimes, and the phones at work suck which makes us look bad and I am going to get the 24th off even if I have to call in, so to keep my calm I am listening to music but since my brand new head phones somehow broke I am not very happy...

People

Well I am not getting my new hours so I missed a chance to change my days off all because people can't think before they act... yeah I am a little mad and my boss is not even here for me to talk to him... I don't know anymore what to do or what to think... I am just going to sit at work and be quite I am not going to do more then I was hired to do no more extra work without extra money...

Bored

I am bored always bored I hate having days off in the middle of the week normal people at work or having to go to work tomorrow... ugh... I wish I was in college again it would be so simple.... I am so bored I am watching stupid cartoons with my brothers.... HELP!!!

You Are Seeing Poems

To make sure they are down I am going to be writing poems some are old I just want to keep, they may suck but I work on them and change them over the years, so anyways if you don't like them to bad, but most of the time I could be posting a random thought so some you can ignore or leave a comment to let me know you hate them... anyways later y'all.

Poem: BEST FRIEND

I thought you said you were my best friend,
if you are why am I crying, bleeding, dying...
You told me you would never hurt me,
you told me that you were the best there would ever be
So I gave you my love, my heart, and soul,
so now I am lying here dying saying...
I thought you said you were my best friend,
if you are why am I crying, bleeding, dying...
You told me you would do nothing to cause me pain,
now my blood is about to drain,
now you are about to put a bullet in my head,
and then I shall be dead,
but before you do I would like to say Fuck You,
then my last thought will be
I thought you were my best friend,
if you are why am I crying for my baby,
bleeding from my heart,
and dying from your bullet.

Sitting

Here I sit wanting you
Here I sit needing you
There you sit not knowing
Here I sit loving you
Here I sit remembering you
There you sit not knowing
Here I sit thinking only of you
Here I sit needing your voice
There you sit not knowing
Here I sit pictureing you
Here I sit needing your touch
There you sit not knowing
Here I sit dying
Here I sit leaving this world
And there you sit never knowing

One Day

One day baby I will let you know
One day baby you will know
One day baby you will let me go
One day baby I will destory me and you
One day baby I will let you know
One day baby you will know
One day baby I'll have another to hold
One day baby I'll have what is left of me and you
One day baby you will leave me and him
One day baby I will tell him o
One day baby you will be an enemy
One day baby my new baby will let you know
One day baby our child will be a man
One day baby I will let you know
One day baby you let me go
One day baby I destoried me and you and
One day baby I will pay for loving you

New Predetors Movie

So I saw the new predetors movie, it sucked bad, there was no plot it was really stupid and so forth that that got a F- if possible that thing needs to be taken out back and shot a few times and then left to die a lonely death it sucked that bad...

Okay

Okay so I am pissed, I don't get my new hours at work and back at my old hours which suck.... something has to be done about this.... a mad Kati is not good news for anybody...

New Hours At Work

Well I got some new hours at work I work Sunday and Monday from 8pm to 6am and then Thursday and Saturday from 9pm to 7am! Don't know how it is going to work out but should be okay. Anyways they found an almost 4 million year old humnoid!!! It was a female! Other then that the Universe is leaking, babies know all the secrets to life, plug in hybrids are going to do more damange then good and they have robots fighting battles, (sources National Geographic and Scientific American). Other then that I have been reading the Sookie Stackhouse books, they are okay it is slow reading, mostly because it can get long and drawn out at times, they get a C-.